blurry

The past few weeks seem to have disappeared in a blur. There has been so much going on, yet not all that much at all.

The internship is going well....I am more than half way through this now, which seems ridiculous. 3 months is not a very long time really. I've also been chasing people on what seems like an endless journey of paperwork and protocol, incompetent staff and misunderstandings. These 2 things combined have meant I have upped my search for paid employment....short term, long term.....anything really....shine your shoes guvnor?

I am also battling with creating work...not through any lack of ideas or motivation - more a sense of guilt that I am not spending my time looking for a job, beacuase I need money and need to live. I finally came to realise this week (ok, my dad actually pointed it out to me) that my art is my work, I shouldn't feel guilty about making time for it. It may not actually be making me a great deal of money right now, but without it there is nothing, no progression and no future and I may as well be back working in a mind numbing job that I hate for the rest of my life!

Early tomorrow morning I am disappearing for a few days. A much needed break from every thing that is here....except maybe my sisters who will also be travelling north for our mothers 60th. It will be fabulous to get out of the city, untie myself from the computer, untangle myself from the shit that's going on here and just breathe......